March 6, 2020
Recently a friend of mine walked into TLP, put her hands on the counter and said, “surrender”! She stated that she believed she needed a crystal for surrender. I researched briefly, looked at her and said, “you don’t need anything! Surrendering isn’t for you, that message is for me”. After she left, (I may have the details a little out of sort, but you get it) I began reading an entry out of my journal that I had intentionally, not read, for many weeks after the initial entry. The first word, you guessed it, SURRENDER, and written as such. Sooooo, what did I do, but surrendered. The interesting part was I had no idea what I was surrendering too. Boy was I surprised when that lesson showed up!!!
Have you ever noticed tho, that the lessons quite often show up in the people, places and things that you least expect? Well, this universe thing never ceases to amaze me! The interesting part about this recent journey was one of those moments! As I was traveling into the darkness, I kept repeating over and over, I know this is for my greatest good, I know that I am learning, I know that I am healing from this, but for fuck’s sake, can we please just speed it up….and as you all know, you can’t rush the process if you don’t want to repeat it.
So here we are, on the other side as I like to refer to it as the “beautiful shit storm”. I don’t feel the need to go into the details of the storm as they truly aren’t necessary, and are now a part of my past, but what I will elaborate on is the beautiful, wonderful, amazing, human beings that I consider my tribe. The one’s who pick you up when you feel as if you don’t have the strength, the one’s who hold the space and listen even when they may have something else more pressing in their lives, the one’s who acknowledge that you are going through it and allow you to do so with most importantly, no judgment. They are what and who I believe to be, our guardian’s, angels on earth, our tribe, our blessings. They may show up as friends, family, neighbors, teachers, gas station attendants, servers, and/or, but not limited to random strangers, and for each of them, I am grateful.
Over the years, I have been taught that you need to go threw the darkness to get to the light. Many of you may have heard me say that time and time again. As I began writing this post, this song that I have heard many times before started playing, and for the first time, I intently and truly heard and listened to the lyrics of this particular song. The lines that resonated with me into the depths of my being are this, and I quote:
Nothing is a waste if you learn from it
And the sun, it does not cause us
The sun, it does not cause us to grow
It is the rain that will strengthen,
The rain that will strengthen your soul
We can’t possibly have the dark without the light, the rain without the sun, the good without the bad, the happy without the sad and the friends without the enemies. (just to name a few), but the most beautiful part of all of this is that if you allow yourself to accept the darkness and heartache as the rain and travel without the umbrella, the beautiful beings in your life will be there to give you shelter if you need it, and dry you off after the storm passes, and for those…I thank you…